Little help please *

[finalexplosion]

Update:

So it has been a while. Not much progress on my front. My tooth has changed color since the root canal therapy. I think I will be particular for a crown at some point. I need another consult with the new orthodontist. I want clarity as to which is a better process, crown, then braces or braces then crown. It is annoying because this process has been held up for a while. My teeth have shifted. even biting into an apple sucks. Its better now.

As for work, i am working reduced hours, and not quite full time. I don't have benefits which sucks. i have tried looking around but, I am likely going to finance it. The intention is to do a down payment prior to the start of this. I have some stuff with work going on as well with the renewal of my contract. I have been there for a couple years so, I am not concerned though, if my hours change, I will need to look for new work.

I have a cleaning coming up in a few weeks. I am not eating chocolate or candy. No juice. I am doing kefir because of the probiotics and the health properties which are great for teeth so I have read. It was really upsetting for sometime. I look around and i see people eating junk foods with perfectly straight white teeth. I am eating salads and cooking chicken but, battling teeth cavities or root canals. It was bugging me for a bit and then it stopped.

I recently came across dmt. I have been watching JRE podcast and a variety of sources, forums like shroomery or other for sometime. I wont lie, i was terrified of the experience but, I indulged. One sec I am on a couch. The next sec, my whole world goes ludic dream like. If you ever did the singing bowls in meditation, the resonance is all around you similarly only more intense. Everything went super saturated. I inhaled one more time and then, I got tunnel vision, and I felt like I was drowning. I could feel ego consciousness clinging to this life in one instant. The next second, there is just darkness, void, black, nothingness but, pure presence, and stillness. And then, I saw the light again. All my fears, worries, anxieties were gone. I wasn't thinking about braces or the self consciousness I may experience in public. I wasn't worried about a root canal or whitening my teeth. I felt like I died and was born again. As though every banger quote from fight club made sense and then some. It turned down the volume on all that sesame that I dwell on that doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things; alpha, omega, beginning and no end.

Things are going good. I am meditating more. I am really sitting in stillness and soaking it all up. Its just braces. Nobody has perfect teeth without having done something. I also noticed beautiful girls who have braces or not perfect teeth. We're not alone. Nobody is cut from a different cloth. I also met a new girl and went out on a date. Met another girl who gave her number and I am planning to see her again soon. Life is good. I am taking sometime to just unwind.

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Glad to hear that life is good!

When are you scheduled to start your braces? Regarding the crown, if your tooth is at risk of breaking especially after a root canal, you may need to get it or a temp one before the braces to protect your tooth.

You can just give your ortho a call to ask re the crown first or after braces.