thank you, Highandlo!:)
today was the removal of one wisdom tooth, heres the short story:
i wasnt really petrified when i went to the surgeon today, but of course there was a kind of strange feeling inside of me, not knowing what exactly is going to happen, as some people say its horrible, and some, that its a cakewalk...
but i can tell everyone who still is pre-wisdomteethremoval, that it wasnt so bad at all!! actually, i didnt feel anything when they started, and ive decided to just close my eyes, so i didnt see all the butcher-instruments, lol, although i was reaally really curious to see whats going on..

but i managed to keep my eyes closed, while they even had to dig inside my bone with a borer, as the tooth has grown inside the bone completely, and they had a hard time trying to get it ôut there.. and at the end they put some stitches, and finished it was.
it really sounds worse then it is, i felt a little pressure, but nothing more, so no reason to be horrified!!
the funny part was, when i had my eyes closed, and he had started already with the procedure, i heard a loud knocking beside me, so i asked, "everything alright??"(it was more a "ahihin ahaight?") and he just said, "yeah, just some technical problems", then he kept on beating with an instrument to the table!!
i really dont know why i started laughing, but it kind of was a slapstick, a schematical surgeon/patient situation..
yesterday i felt a bit alone, when thinking about the whole prosedure thats ahead of me, and one step following so fastly after the other. its not that i felt lonely, because fortunately i have some people who support me. even my mom is going to be here with me, some days before, until after the surgery, although she lives in another country, so im very happy about that, especially, because actually we've never had a good relationship until now. and if we still dont, at least i wont be able to fight with her after surgery, hahaha..
so its not that i felt lonely, but rather alone with all the pain and discomfort, and also the fears, cause im the only one who can bare them.. unfortunately..
but its a big release, knowing that its not as bad as i thought, so now i am more relaxed about the main surgery too, i mean, im gonna survive, right??;)
greetings, stephany