Second appointment exactly the same as the first. He says three weeks tightly banded shut
now, then two bands on the sides for three weeks. It went from one week banded shut-one week in elastics to this. If I would have known I wouldn't be able to talk or eat for this long I would have
never agreed to the surgery with him. He made such a big fuss over how he doesn't believe in wiring. Well congratulations buddy! I hope the imaginary surgical high ground you've convinced yourself you live on feels great under your sainted feet, because at this point banding and wiring aren't
any different. I want to stay positive but honestly I just wanted to cry on my way out of the office.
This whole time I have felt so lucky as I don't have any bruising nor numbness. I also figured that because of that and since it was only BSSO, and I am young the brunt of the healing time would be about a month. This is the healing time I made plans around. This is the healing time he said to expect. I've been up on my feet and back to normal since day 6, I just do not understand this 3 week business. When I asked he said, "oh well I guess we could do the appointments every TWO weeks if you'd like that instead." F-ck you. F-ck you hard. I hope one day you need to get jaw surgery, just so you can see what it feels like.
So I'm stuck here until the 16th of July. That’s over two months- GONE. Doing what? Noooooothing. A waste. Can't work (wouldn't it be a blast to be interviewed banded shut!). Can't eat. Can't drink. Can't go any where for longer than 5 days. Shouldn't smoke. I can't even sleep they way I want to. No one I know wants to waste their summer/days off work sitting around at someone’s house watching movies all day. Thanks guys, the support is astounding. I start the fall quarter on August 8. There goes the last summer of college I would have gotten to share with my friends. Thanks! No, I don't want to hear about the new apartment you're having a party at, or about your club hopping and hooking up, or about the super awesome vacations you are going on. Not right now. Anything but that right now. I don't need your help to feel like complete crap.
What frustrates me the most is that so many people have had more done, and have had a much harder time recovering, and yet they didn’t have to put up with this crap for six weeks. The whole banding/wiring system seems very screwy and arbitrary. He is the surgeon, so I have to believe that he knows what’s best- I just can't help but doubt him. At the end of the day I know whats best for me. It isn't he who is left feeling lonely, sick from being hungry, and exhausted. He can take vacation if he wants. Eat what he wants. Say what he wants. What's six weeks to him, but six insurance checks.
Bitter? Me?- nahhhh.