i am an 18 year old turning 19 in september. I live in toronto, canada.
this is me the day before the surgery
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Day of surgery: May 15th
My surgery started at 8, so I was asked to get to the hospital at 6:30. Sign in with the nurses, who rechecked my vital sign (blood pressure and heart rate). I wasnt nervous at all. So then I had to change into hospital cloth and wait for the nurses to take me to the operating room. When I got the OR I met my surgeon and anestiologist. It wasnt long before I dosed off. The surgery took about 3 and half hours. I remember waking up around 1h30 in another room with the tubes in my nose. Removing them felt really awkward as I could feel blood rushing in my nose. IT was pretty painful at that time until they gave me some morphine. I was then moved to my room. I had my family and friends there. My first day was my least painful and I could actually talk pretty easily. Every one left around 7- 9pm. That is when things started getting pretty bad, more pain (jaw, nose and eyes) and nausea when ever I got up to go the washroom. I told them and they brought me nausea medicine which helped a lot. The first night was pretty horrible though as I could not find a comfortable position and I was awake all night and the max dose of morphine they gave me wasnt enough I found. Also an annoying thing about the nurses at first, would be that I would call them using the nurse button, and I would hear them trough the interphone .how can we help you?; but since I couldnt talk no one would show up, then they realized my condition and came as soon as I rang the bell.
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Day 2: may 16th
The next day my dad came to visit around 7. He brought me mirror, at this point I looked like a 400 pound man, because of all the swelling. (I will be attaching pics)
At 7:30 the surgeon came and said that everything went really well and asked us to get an appointment on Thursday to put elastics. Around 9 the dietician came and told us what I should be eating the next 10 days and gave us papers with lots of ideas. I was then discharged from the hospital after I received a shot in my leg with long lasting effect. On our way home my dad picked up the medication which consisted of codeine, antibiotics and a nasal spray. It was nice to be back home but it was really hard with the swelling and the lack of fluids that provided the ivy. I had chicken broth, water, different juices and milkshakes. The second night was a little bit better, I still had problems sleeping but I managed to catch a few hours (3-4) during the night. The pain wasn’t so bad.
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after i got home
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Day 3: may 17th
It seems like every morning its hard to shallow as the mouth is fairly dry which is pretty annoying. The pain is very present at times. I have to learn to avoid the comedy channel as laughing can be very painful. Also at times you might want to cry because of the pain but really avoid it as it was extremely painful in my case in the area right above my upper lip. It felt like that area was tearing apart, and the pain didnt help me with stopping crying, so I put an ice pack on the area and tried to relax.
Thank god my family is by my side at all times, making me food, getting me things, helping me up. (Because I am still dizzy when I get up to the washroom etc..
Day 4: may 18th
Once again I didnt sleep at all last night so it sucked; That morning I had an appointment with my surgeon at 8 am to have x-rays done and to put rubber bands. This made things really bad, as I could no longer open my mouth, talk and it restricted my diet even more. It also created a new element of fear, as it was harder to breath but the worse was that I was scared of having to throw up and not be able to cut them in time. But it s still better then having my jaws wired shut. The surgeon also told me that day, that it would be my worse day pain wise and that I should bare with him (but I seems to me that he says that every time he sees me lol )So I spent the day adjusting to these elastics trying to deal with the pain.
Day 5:
Things are similar to day 4, things seem to be getting a Little bit better.
I started turning yellow ( cheeks, neck and upper chest)
One of the worst things so far were the nights, i hate them, i usualy want the day to last as long as possible, because at night everyone is sleeping, and i just stare , try to watch tv, it s like i am neva completly sleeping cuz of the discomfort, breathing, stomach and face aches.
Day 6: may 20th
The swelling went down at this point but I am still really swelled. I am not taking as much pain medicine as I used to the past few days, because it causes lots of stomach pain and also because the thing tastes nasty (codeine, the antibiotics tastes really good though).
This is the first night I actually slept a full night.
Day 7: may 21th
Well this was an exiting day as there was daylight in the house when I opened my eyes which meant I slept almost all night. But this day was pain energy wise as I could not seem to get enough food in. I also had some pain crisis moments when it felt that my jaws and the part was killing me. I am really glad that my parents are with me at all times, and this is a long weekend. I am getting tired of juices and shakes. And all I could find are these 10-20cc syringues with long tubes. (Open to suggestions for food ideas and delivery methods to the mouth)
walking around is getting much easier, altough i still get dizzy after a while but thas probably due to the lack of energy
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i am sorry about the ugly pics, i wasnt exatly when they were taking, and i didnt take ne between day 3 and 5
Also I didnt talk much about numbness but it seems that I wont have much permanent loss, my chin is little tingly but it seems like I can feel it, the only problem I see at this point is that I cant really feel the left side of my lower lip. I guess we will see how this progresses with time. (my lips are HUGE right now)
Ice really helped me with the the pain , brusiing and swelling
I am still yellow too. As u can see from todays pic.
Ill keep updating day after day with pictures.
I know i have made it seem like a horrible time, which is partilly true, but whenever i think of i am gonna like soon, it makes it all worth it.