so here i am again...cant sleep

not because of my braces though...sorta getting used to them, well at least the uppers i have so far...except for the bands which i am guessing will take a little more time to adjust to...but at least i am eating more solid foods and happy about that...i really dont mind getting food stuck in my braces because it just feels so good to have real food in my mouth!! just keep bottle of water close by to rinse.
what i really came on here for is not really concerning my braces themselves but all the emotions and things i have been realizing because of them. I still can't believe i am actually doing this but really proud of myself because this is so out of the ordinary considering my personality...Ive realized that for a long time I have been avoiding things i want to do because of my fears and negative approach to them or I just dont believe I have the strength, determination or faith to accomplish these things. I know these braces are only temporary but going to be on for awhile and are like a permanent reminder that i can do anything i put my mind to!!! what am i so scared of??? anyways...my point is that i have been holding myself back and getting in my way of my dreams....
I've really been finding myself these days...realizing certain strengths and weaknesses; faults I would like to change....even though most times i dislike my braces and all the stuff that comes along with it i must say it has been an eye opener and has brought me to reality!
as for my update...saturday is officially one week i have my uppers braced! lol waiiting for my camera batteries to charge and will have pics up...Socially...no impact so far...Ive been on vacation from school and work!!! a little nervous about going back to work because I work with young elementary children... i can just imagine all the comments! not too sure how co workers will react...people who do know i have braces so far keep commenting on how beautiful i already am!!! and asking why i got braces cuz they dont think i need them!! hello!!! havent all you seen my pictures???? well i do smile differently for pictures and around ppl and make it very convincing i have nice teeth lol...as for school...not too nervous...taking night classes, an online class and a dance class so not too worried about making too much contact even though i know i shouldnt be ashamed!!! As for dating...was shortly dating one fellow but i think after i mentioned i was getting braces he disappeared! lol i dont care thought because just shows me how shallow of a person he is and i dont want anyone like that!! Funny thing actually on my very first day of getting my uppers braced (feeling like a 15 year old since its bad enough i already look 17) and also not feeling too cute...i got my first experience kissing with braces on!! lol wow very interesting things ive been going through because of these lovely things we call braces...anyways time to go night night...here are the pics...3 of one week in ( no visable progress to me yet!) and a pic of me faking a nice teeth smile lol...
sorry the pics are soooo big...i tried resizing them a million times but wouldnt work!!! darn it...here they are anyways...
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See why ppl think i dont need braces???
so wrong...cant wait till i can smile straight on and not have to worry about angles!