I’m having a bad time with my ortho anxiety, almost back to the feeling of wanting to rip them of my teeth (just that I won’t do it). Even though I have my ups and downs with these braces the anxiety is not even near how it was in the beginning (can you remember klobird?). That is a good thing! I just wish all of it would go away, sometimes it’s really terrible to have it (how did I survive in the beginning?
).On the appointment on Monday:
“How about getting the .014 wire?”
Me: *panic*
“But you know that there is not much different between them”
“It looks twice as big. Look”
“It’s not twice as big. A .026 would be twice as big”
“It’s still looks twice as big” *panic*
When I got my lowers: I was standing beside the chair waiting for the anxiety to calm down so I could “jump in” (to use my ortho’s words) the chair.
After the anxiety had calmed down a bit: “I would rather extract teeth than having these appointments”
Eric with his back towards me trying to find his gloves in the drawer “No,no,no…. Don’t say that. We are having so much fun here!”
Me: *gets another panic attack for no reason* (so fun!...
)Every time there is time to change arch wires we are using ages on it, either he have to use a few appointments to get me ready or we have an appointment with a lot of panic. I have said it several times before but I have to say it once more: it’s incredible that he have not given up on me yet! He must have had a few moments where he have wonder what he had gotten himself into, especially when the anxiety was on its worst.
Tend to have a notebook where I write down my questions and feelings for the next appointment and Eric always ask if I have it with me (at the end of every appointment we sit down and have a talk). Forgot it when I got my lowers so when I arrived on Monday the first thing he asked about was if I had my notebook with me (which I had), it’s an important piece on my appointments. Have had it almost since the beginning so there are tons of questions I have asked him.
When I’m done I will give him a special gift that will both have things that have been important for me in our appointments (like this notebook) and something that shows how grateful I’m are for everything he has done. I still have a lot of treatment left but I have already gotten much longer than I would ever dream of.
. When I was in the chair (he had not managed to open the brackets yet) an assistant came to ask boss something, and I immediately got up and on my way out of the chair. So boss tried to get me to stay in the chair with his hand waiving in a “down” motion while he answered some questions. No other disturbances happened after that so it went smoothly but the "down" with his hands was funny 
I hate to change wires, I wish the .014 wire could do the whole job 
