On day 20 after the surgery, I made the mistake of biting down hard/clenching the left side of my jaw for some reason, and then my second upper molar (on the left side) felt like it was pushed deeper into my gums and the pain was driving me crazy again. So the next day (day 21 after surgery), I tugged a bit on that tooth. I also gently tugged the other side as I'm pretty OCD when it comes to things being even all the time. It still wasn't enough, I was still in pain when I was sleeping. So the next day (day 22 after surgery), I tugged on my left upper molar many times. And because of my OCD about evenness, I tugged the right upper molar many times as well. I think I went too far that day, it was no longer about easing the pain but more about evening out each side.
The next two days after that (day 23 and 24), I gently tugged each side again because they didn't feel even. I realized it had become a vicious cycle, and my mom forbid me from playing with my teeth. I have stopped doing it now. I really regret it, I worry so much that all that tugging could've ruined or altered my jaw surgery results (which were absolutely amazing, my surgeon is truly a magician). Do you think the force of tugging my second molars could've pulled my upper jaw down a bit or loosened the screws and plates? Could I have also loosened my splint? Like I mentioned before, it felt so weird and painful to force my fingers into my mouth as I generally can't open very wide. I also wonder if forcing my mouth open that wide could've shifted things and/or messed up my jaw alignment. In order to put my fingers in, there was some pressure put on my lower jaw. I'm seeing my surgeon again in a few days, but I worry about any minor shift I could've caused that the surgeon might not notice or care about. It just kills me that I could've interfered with my jaw surgery result. I know that since I am so paranoid, I shouldn't have taken any risk at all, but initially it was because the pain was intolerable and later on it was because of my OCD, which I couldn't control. I have had an issue with tugging and pushing my teeth for over a year now. It started because of my receding gums, so many of my teeth feel quite loose (especially my upper molars) and the ones with lots of gum recession sometimes look like they are coming out, so then I would pushed them back in. But often when I push too hard, that really hurt so I would tug the tooth. Especially with my upper molars, it's insane how easily they get intruded and extruded now.
Anyways, does anyone know how easy it is for your jawbones to shift after jaw surgery? Specifically if it is easy for the upper jawbones to be pulled down? How strong are the plates and screws? It's not like there are plates and screws covering the whole jaw, they are only fixed on a few areas, so I worry that the back (where I pulled) could be moved somehow. Also, I have this terrible habit of pressing the sides of my nose all the time (sometimes it's because it feels dry and itchy) and pushing the tip of my nose up (just a weird habit I had for years), and I have been wondering it that could also be bad for my jaw surgery results (since my upper jaw was cut from under my nose and advanced). Moreover, could pressing the sides of my nose have loosened the alar cinch that was put in? I noticed that the more I press, the wider my nose seems to look.
I wish I had realized all these things earlier and had been extra safe. It's only afterwards that the regret sinks in and I feel devastated and anxious. I know I should rely on my surgeon for these answers, but it is embarrassing to tell him all these things and I doubt he will have much time to listen anyways (my last follow up appointment was really short). He may just say it's really hard to move the bone or something and not really understand what I did. But what if I caused a small change/damage that is not visible to the naked eye? Or even a change that wouldn't be noticeable on the x-ray? Even if it doesn't affect the quality of my life, it's so upsetting that I could've caused any change just because of my stupid habit of tugging my teeth and playing with my nose. I must've gone too far, I remember before, my second molars on the left side touched perfectly, but after the last time I tugged the left side, they no longer meet perfectly and there is a tiny space between them now. Also after tugging the right side so many times, my bracket or wire has started to poke my cheek. Since I did pull my molars down a bit and messed up my bracket, could that force have also been enough to shift my jaw? I didn't think I pulled too hard, but I can't trust my memory
Rather than always plaguing my mom with these implacable concerns, I wanted some other opinions. Please.
