Hi guys, I'm really sorry but I'm in need to vent again...
It's not the teeth themselves now... it's the whole thing. I can't focus on anything else, it's nuts.
So, I was checking my gums in the lower arch and damn, the extractions really need to be done, or else my gums will disappear under my canines

... the gum is SOOO thin there, I can see my roots very clearly. My doctor said it will alright in the future, but I can't help but to think in the "what if's".... What if the gum opens? what if my mum decides to change to the other "system" there is ('cause this is nearly for free, but I am entitled to the treatment 'cause she works where she works), she wants to change it, I think I've convinced her but I'm afraid she might take one of those quick (and wrong) decisions she does every now and then. And then I'd have to wait again, and I don't want to screw my mouth... and I haven't told her about the extractions...
I'm going to blow up with so much stress inside of me, I've decided to have my tumors (the remains in my arm) removed until the extractions were done so I will only have them done later.
I just really hope my ortho. knows what she is doing, like she knows how to deal with the fact that I've got NO lower second molars....
Days go by to slowly and at my age, and as ridiculous as this may seem I just want TIME TO PASS... I want to hibernate for a freaking year.
The worse that is killing me is having to depend on my mother financially... I wish I could just think "screw my degree, I'm going to work"... but I can't... 'cause I really want it.
Damn, ok I've vented. I hope this won't sound bad for any of you. Braces are AWESOME it's just that in my case it's all different so I can't wait to have the extractions done and the freaking teeth in their right place like everyone else... I want normal gums that don't have to stretch all the way to accommodate my teeth. Just want to be NORMAL, have the mouth I was BORN WITH.
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Joanna