My whole journey started on a dental phobia site. I was absolutely TERRIFIED

of the dentist. It's a long story, but with the help of the most amazing dentist--I call her "superdentist"--the terror is now down to anxiety. I use to start being terrified about 2 months before my dental check-up/cleaning. We are talking outright obsessively terrified. Before I first saw "superdentist" she sent a questionnaire. It was the most detailed one I've ever gotten from any medical/dental professional. Basically, I told her that she would be the last dentist I would try. Either this appt. would work out, or I was never going to the dentist again in my life. I told her that in the questionnaire. (Along with a bunch of other information..) I really meant it.
She is the most amazing dentist I have ever known. And.....I get all the nitrous I want!! Anyway, the point of all this is....I HAVE TO GO TO THE DENTIST IN ABOUT 13 HRS.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. She's not THAT great. OK, yes she is. But the smells are still the same, the chair is still the same etc etc etc. So ya, anxiety is setting in. Absolutely nothing like 2 years ago, but it's there.
So, I just got an e-mail tonight from the dentist asking me to be there 10 mins early so they can get the nitrous started. Ummmm-- OK!!
Yes, I get nitrous for a check-up/cleaning...Yes I do.....what's really weird is that going to the ortho doesn't bug me at all....To me, I feel like the ortho is like working on a car in my mouth. Like he doesn't even say anything about my teeth except how they're moving. Totally non-threatening.
But going to a regular dentist is like visiting the grim reaper or something. Scary. Icky. Freddy Krueger....like who does that willingly?
So that's what's on my mind tonight. Heavy sigh........